The Blessing of "No".
"I think I've got things pretty together." This was the thought that went through my head, January 2018. I arrogantly surveyed things and any red flags in life were obviously the effects of other people's issues. I was not the cause. Every day was a long list of victim mentality fueled excuses. I didn't need to change, everyone else did. Oh man did I learn. February hit like a freight train. I came face to face with my worst fears as a mother and it left me in a crumpled heap on the floor. I won't get into the details, but I remember the lesson I learned. I remember the "No" for that season. I cannot save my children. I am not enough to fill them. I cannot love them enough and any attempt to point them to myself instead of the Lord was arrogance and would always fail. I remember the moment when I realized this. I was standing in the dark in the kitchen. The kids were all in bed. Steve walked in and wrapped his a